An Open Letter To All Of My Vexes

My benefit of the doubt comes in limited quantities. I’m all for forgiving and seeing the good in people but there’s a point where it runs out….it gets harder to see the silver lining. 

Imagine it’s like my favorite piece of cheesecake, I’m willing to be accommodating at first and share a slice, but if you get greedy and think it’s always available no matter how many times you take my giving for granted….you’ll more than likely end up with a fork in the back of your hand than you will a piece of cheesecake in your mouth. 

I’ve found recently that I’ve had to battle moments like this in my work and personal life. In both instances I’ve been stumped. The only thing I’ve been left with is a sense of dismissal, disappointment and loss. 

I tried to forgive, I tried to forget, I tried to understand, all to no avail. 

It did get me thinking though…..

There’s only so much rejection a person can take:
Being made to feel unwanted.

Being made to feel unattractive. 

Being made to feel unwelcome. 

Being made to feel unneeded.

Being made to feel unaccomplished.

It begins to feel never-ending. 

Whether intentional or accidental, it’s heartbreaking.

You can be the strongest person & will probably continue to be a strong person, but it doesn’t mean you’re immune to the hurt.

And even though the hurt is like sandpaper and it polishes you to be a more resilient brilliant version of yourself, it still scratches parts of you away. 

The best thing you can do when facing your vexes is try and be the finest version of yourself that you can be. Because sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same. 

It is intimidating when you’re in a dark place, you feel like you’ve been buried…the truth is you’ve been planted. Learn from what’s happened. Grow. Don’t let the things that vex you stunt your growth. 


xoxo Natalie

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